[despite of year 1988 and year 2008 which made my birthday=cny, maybe more i can't recall back.]

too many things have happened, and i think the list will be still going on.

the fact is, most of them are not positive, which make me very in shock.

oh my... what's wrong?!

刚看了<爱的发声练习>

小猫的3段爱情故事

阿良 小古 Sunshine

Full House Cafe

friendship mugs, bought them from Festive Fantasy,the Disney灯光展览会.

and it's a bit out of my adaptation >.<

yam cha with J and went to buy tickets together

cuz we are going to watch movie tomorrow morning

S called and we talked very pleasantly, which is very unexpected and very surprised

home sweet home is the best

miss my honey so so much went yam cha with him =)

uma is floated with people >.<

we waited 1 and half hour just for the god damn 3 bungkus maggi goreng

a whole waiting day!

wait 100 numbers to renew his driving licence in JPJ.

wait him to pay and deal with the UTAR car park sticker in the car under BIG hot sun.

(you know how BIG and hot when it's around CNY)

CNY is coming! any plan people? lemme know!

21 birthday is coming! i have no idea how to celebrate it!

suggestion please? =)

18 days have gone for my 2009 and i'm still rotten like a rotten potato! wtf.

the career fair is nothing about mass communication. funny. mountain people mountain sea. dulan. my feet hurt like hell thanks to the heels. my stomach ache like hell too, since 6am. don't know wtf is happening inside my tummy. urgh!

found something in career fair, "Become an Au Pair and See the World!" in Dutch or Belgian for one year. all i need to do is to pay RM300 for passport and RM4500 including plane ticket, visa, Dutch/Belgian language and culture training in Bangsar for 4 weeks, childcare cooking cycling swimming etc, accomodation in carefully selected host family, participation in activities like Paris and Disney trip, 2 weeks paid vacation, travel opportunities in Europe, 300-340 Europe dollars pocket money per month and so on. good deal huh? i'm considering about this. will be a very special experience for me eh. how? comment please?

oh ya sunway pyramid! it's been months i last shop at there eh. i like pyramid, a very complete BIG shopping mall, you can shop whatever you want in cheap or expensive way, watch movie, ice-skating, karaoke, eat eaT eAT EAT, lagoon and etc etc. i bought 2 dresses 1 skirt 1 tee 1 shorts with < RM250 eh! very worthy! i'm so happy! because i found my dressing style in Pyramid! something like bohemian? i love that! ^^ (i don't care what my babe or my mom or other kilikuala criticize about my choice! i always don't, blek!) oh i heart there! full of CNY feel too! gongxifacaidongdongqiang! definitely will be my new shopping place! yeah!

tomorrow will be going to Career Fair in Mid Valley, with Yuki and WanYing, hopefully i'll get something, preferably a dream job. (i know there's seldom a dream job) actually i am praying hard to get the job in Nuffnang, if you know what is it.

今晚的心情真的很差，11pm出去吃了maggi goreng+roti telur，肚子很脹，睡不著，電視節目很無聊，上線沒有東西看。

畢業了現在失業，不知道自己要的是什么不要的是什么，只是知道自己很空虛很無助，很想消失在這個世上。

突然閃過一個念頭，何不放下一切漂洋國外？沒有錢就去打工有錢就吃，爽就玩不爽就耍自閉。

講是很簡單，做卻需要勇氣。

i really have no fucking idea why someone has to be oh-so-always-innocent and never want to step out from her little castle to learn whatever it is from small to big things?! she's like, hello, turning 22 years old, soon? what the heck is in her little mind?! seriously i treat her like my very good friend (not the best though, you'll know later, or you already knew), since we knew each other for couple of years, hang around for three uni years, used to be a pair of dolls, date her out whenever i have any program, sms her during semester break, until i got bored of all the rejections and excuses. given the fact she's my friend's girlfriend, and used to be my buther's (new inventive word:buddy+brother) ex. she and i should have a very close and good friendship isn't it? but no it isn't. sometimes thing just don't work out like that, you know, like i've put very much effort on it, try to accept her personality, embrace her sweet side, and told her what i think of her, my suggestions, my sincere words, emails etc etc... but it just didn't get any better, cuz i tried and she didn't (or she think she does), or it just simply doesn't? and so? the situation never get a chance to become smooth&silky [oh i like zohan!]. to her, i really speechless. she always say our friendship is different and special and weird, in some ways, compare to other people. but does she know why? because i care too much, while other friends have already given up on her. i put hope on her, and i'm very disappointed, fed up, piss off, whatever you can say. it's not like i'm a heavenly good person that i have the charge to backstab her or whatsoever (anyway it's my blog), it just we had the same entry level back to three years ago, and look where we are now. you know what, there is a latest hit from Pussycat Dolls "When I Grow Up", i think she has her own theme song too "I Never Grow Up". being sarcastic and mean? yes, no. if i'm really that mean, she's not here to talk with me anymore (or i'm not). i'm a big fan of Gossip Girl, and i can do some very dramatic and bitchy thing, if you know what i mean. but i'm not, yet, cuz i don't want to become Ella Ella Rihanna, the Good Girl Gone Bad? lol lame. the truth is, i don't want to hurt her little fragile heart (maybe she's not but i just can't make myself to do it yet), and i'm still holding little hope for her to realize the fact and make a change. but apparently she didn't, and i don't think she will until she is really grow up or get some serious downfall? i don't know whether she will actually get to read this or not, most probably not (because she is kinda outsider in internet world, which we use to connect our bugs members when we do or do not see each other, and this is one of the reason why we can't really fit in), but i don't care already, it's my thought, and leave it to fate.

i really hope you will grow up, someday.